Wishful Wednesday

I have been thinking for a while about a new tattoo. I got my last one this past August so I have a while before I will get another, but I love looking and getting ideas. I have no idea where I want the next one to go either. I don't like big tattoos and I like the idea of having all of mine somewhere that I could cover them up if need be.

I love this one:

Miranda Lambert actually has this tattoo on her forearm.

Obviously, I don't want all the background stuff but I do like the gun and wings idea. My other tattoos are so girly that I kind of want something *badass*.

I guess we shall see a little down the road what I actually get.

Happy Wednesday!



Yep...blah! I hate everything right now. Call me bi-polar or depressed if you must, but I hate it all. Everything seems to piss me off lately (well the last 2 weeks). I wake up pissed off. I go to sleep pissed off. Work pisses me off. Driving pisses me off. OMG...I HATE other drivers. I cannot even begin to express how much I hate driving right now. I broke my dishwasher the other day because I was pissed off. My body hates me and really doesn't want to cooperate with me. Life sucks! Yay for me! I'm sure my husband loves the bitch side of me. Oh well, he probably deserves me to be bitchy at some point, so why not now?

My brother deploys in the near future. That is also part of why I'm so bitchy. I fear for his safety. I need him to come home safe. He is truly my hero and I don't know what I would do without him.

I go back to the doctor for the 4th time in a month this Friday. I better get some sort of good news or I may put a hole in one of the walls in my house.

I never had anger issues until the last year or so. I don't understand. It's not even really anger. It's more of the fact that I keep everything bottled up until I can no longer handle anything. I don't understand why all of a sudden in the last year or so everything has changed. It blows my fucking mind! I cried the other day because the bacon was taking too long to cook. YEP...you read it right. I cried over some damn bacon. I laid in my bedroom floor and cried because I couldn't find anything to wear. Before anyone says PMS...NO...it's not. I promise.

Life will get better! Life will get better! Life will get better! I really hope something changes soon or else I will go crazy.


2010 Academy of Country Music Awards

Anyone that knows me, knows that I love country music. The 2010 Academy of Country Music Awards were last night so I thought it would be fitting if I were to give my opinion on what happened throughout the night.

Most all of the images below are from www.gettyimages.com

I will start with Best Dressed.

I thought Carrie Underwood looked fabulous all night. She is such a classy young lady.

Hilary Scott of Lady Antebellum looked fabulous in this pink dress. She is a gorgeous girl as well.

A newcomer to the country scene, Laura Bell Bundy, stole the orange carpet with this amazing slit dress.

Eddie Montgomery of Montgomery Gentry looked fabulous in this cross blazer. I am a sucker for crosses so this blazer definitely caught my eye. Troy Gentry was pretty good looking too! I loved his suit.

Jennifer Nettles of Sugarland looked stunning in this dress. I love the necklaces that was paired the dress. Such a modern twist to a timeless dress.

Julianne Hough looked amazing in this white dress. I love this dress and her hair!

Finally, Reba McEntire was gorgeous as always. Although, I am not a huge fan of this dress, she looked classy all night long.


I loved Carrie Underwood's performance of "Temporary Home". I loved the simplicity of the set for the song too.

Reba McEntire almost brought tears to my eyes during her performance of "I Keep on Loving You". I never really listened to the words of the song until last night. I love how they showed pictures of some of country music's greatest couples during this song including, Johnny and June Cash, Reba and her husband, Tim and Faith, Alan and Denise Jackson and so on.

Finally, Brooks & Dunn and their Last.ACM.Performance.As.A.Duo.EVER. I cried. It was a sad few moments. I grew up listening to Brooks & Dunn. They are an amazing duo and I hate to see that come to an end after 20 years. They definitely left their mark on country music. I thought it was really neat how the ACM peeps let America vote on which song they would sing at their final performance. They did an awesome job and received a well-deserved standing ovation.

Other random thoughts from the night

I had to mute the TV during Taylor Swift's performance. That poor child cannot carry a tune in a bucket. I know I shouldn't judge because well...I can't sing either but she is downright horrible and awful to listen too. Her 15 minutes were up 30 minutes ago!

The gentlemen of Montgomery Gentry received The Home Depot Humanitarian Award. Very well-deserved. It is a humbling experience when two grown men cry during their acceptance speech. Congratulations guys...You deserved it.

I love Toby Keith and his performance last night was phenomenal. He has so much heart and always put 110% into everything he does. I wish he would have shaved a little though. He was looking a little scruffy.

I think the show was great. I wish they would give more awards as opposed to all the performances but overall I agree with all the winners from the evening. Miranda Lambert and Lady Antebellum stole the show with all of their awards, but they were deserved and I couldn't have agreed more.


My current favorite song...

Whenever I hear this song, it makes me think of Josh...not because he is a girl...but because he always says he loves when I have no make-up on, without my heels and so on.... The song is by a country singer named Joe Nichols.

Gimmie that Girl

Hang up that red dress,
let down your hair,
cancel those reservations
there's no need to go no where.
As good as your looking right now,
girl bet your thinkin I'm crazy,
there's a side of you that I wanna see
that never ceases to amaze me.

Gimmie that girl with the hair in a mess
sleepy little smile with her head on my chest,
thats the you that i like best,
gimmie that girl.
Gimmie that girl lovin up on me,
old t-shirt and a pair of jeans,
thats the you i wanna see,
gimmie that girl.

Gimmie the girl thats beautiful,
without a trace of makeup of on,
barefoot in the kitchen,
singing her favorite song.
Dancing around like a fool,
starring in her own little show,
gimmie the girl the rest of the world,
ain't lucky enough to know.

Gimmie that girl with the hair in a mess
sleepy little smile with her head on my chest,
thats the you that i like best,
gimmie that girl.
Gimmie that girl lovin up on me,
old t-shirt and a pair of jeans,
thats the you i wanna see,
gimmie that girl, gimmie that girl.

I hope everyone has a great weekend. Love you all!


Thankful Thursday

Today I am thankful for the sunshine.

We have had some gorgeous weather the last few days.
I have enjoyed getting up in the morning and going outside.

I am thankful that I have been able to keep my flowers alive for almost 3 weeks.
I honestly didn't think that I would be able to keep them alive for a week.


Wishful Wednesday

Today started off great. Josh and I paid off my one and only credit card. YAY!!! Good-bye Mr. Visa...I will NEVER see you again. I'm working on my debt snowball and getting out of debt ASAP. Thank you Mr. Ramsey!

On to Wishful Wednesday... I got some not-so-great news from the doctor again today. Go figure...the story of my life. I am scheduled for more tests next Wednesday. YAY!!!!...NOT!
Today's wish is for my TTGP and 3T ladies. I wish that we all get answers, BFP's or something ($1 million, a car, a smack in the face, a t-shirt...hell, anything is better right now then this crap) real soon. I haven't been at this nearly as long as most of you but this shit sucks! Love ya'll.

I hate how one can start with a great day and then one phone call can screw the whole day up. Oh well....life goes on!


Family Pictures

I got so much accomplished yesterday. I spent the day with my mom and we did some shopping to finish the decor in my living room. I am so happy that after 2 years in this house, I finally have some curtains in the living room. I am so pleased with the outcome, but won't take any pictures until the carpets are cleaned.

I also got to see Mr. Bryan yesterday. He is an awesome person and I love him oh so much!
I also picked up our family portraits that were taken last week. Here are some of my favorites.

I hope that everyone has a great week.


Wishful Wednesday

To be honest, I just wish my body would like me and that it would get its act together really soon.

That's all.



I am proud to say that yesterday marked 3 months since I smoked my last cigarette.

I am officially a non-smoker. I smoked for 7 years. WOW!!! I never thought about how long I actually smoked. I smoked since I was 15. Today, I am sitting here saying that I have never felt better. I can actually breathe. I was one of those people that swore that smoking was not related to why I couldn't breathe or why my heart condition had worsened. Well...I can sit here and tell you that I have not had a single heart problem in the last 3 months and I can breathe when I wake up in the morning. Not to mention, my breath smells a whole hell of a lot better! I never smelled it either until I quit. Now, when I go to my parents house, I want to gag. I smell it on my dad. GROSS! I should have listened to others when they told me to quit a long time ago. I was so stupid. I swore no one could smell it. I swore that all the pageant people had no idea that I was a smoker because there was no way they could smell it on me. I WAS WRONG! I am so embarrassed. I feel like an idiot to be honest.

It was easier to quit then expected and I quit cold turkey. I woke-up one day and decided that I didn't want to smoke anymore. I crumbled up all the cigarettes that I had left. I was scared. I went through Josh when he quit a couple of months earlier and I thought I would leave him because of the way he acted for about a week. He was horrible! It wasn't that bad to be honest. I had some terrible cravings, but I focused on positive things and set goals for myself. I also chewed a lot of gum! I still chew gum, especially in afternoon traffic. Sitting in traffic is the only time I have the feelings that I want one and those feelings are slowly disappearing.

Josh is going on 5 months of being a non-smoker. He had smoked for 12 years. He finally has quit coughing. There towards the end of his smoking, he would cough so bad that he would throw-up. The only thing I don't understand is that since he quit, he started snoring. He never snored before he quit and all of a sudden a couple of months ago, he started snoring LOUDLY! It sucks because I always fall asleep after him. Oh well...

Someone asked me why we both quit. We quit for several reasons. We spent about $300 a month on cigarettes between the both of us. During the summer when we were on the lake, we would smoke almost an entire carton (that's 10 packs of cigarettes) in a weekend. We quit for health reasons. We quit because it was time to grow up and realize that smoking wasn't the cool thing to do. Finally, we quit for our phantom children. Our phantom children will not grow up with smoking parents. We want to give our phantom children the best life possible and if we continued to smoke, we would not be giving them the best that we could.



I found these pictures and wanted to share...

2001- Josh was nice enough to escort at a pageant I was in

2002- Josh's graduation
I thought those were a nice little blast from the past!

We had family portraits done yesterday and no one was killed in the process! YAY!
My flowers are still alive. That makes 1 whole week that I have kept them alive! I have watered them every day, which is amazing that I actually remember to do so.

This is all for now, I must attend to the 2 most helpless boys in the world, aka...my husband and my brother, Matt.


Thankful Thursday

Today I am thankful that it was a gorgeous day outside. The weather was perfect for our family portraits that were taken at Centennial Park.

I am also thankful for my extended weekend. I finally get the chance to catch up on my maid duties at the house.

Finally, I am thankful that no matter the argument Josh and I get in, we don't stay mad for longer than 20 minutes or so. I am so lucky to have a great relationship with him.